"My realize, My love for you"
I miss you, I miss you.
I once closed the door just for you.
As many time, so many times before.
I don't wanna be like this, i just wanna let you know.
Everything i want to hold it, everything just can't let go.
I wish i could find the right word to say.
MY CODE
Kermise Toh
14 october 1990
New Creation Church
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| Monday, December 31, 2007 |
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After 12 tonight, it will be a brand new year ahead. 2007 has been a great year. &2008 will be greater. I see so much Faith, Prosper, Grace& Hope Lord pours into my life ever sinces I was being SAVED. There's so many thing i wished and prayed for in year 2008.
Im so proud and blessed that I have been a person in Christ for 8 month and 16days. Althought I didnt do my quiet time, reading Bible book and so on. But the ONE thing I know is, Lord still loves me! Deep down in my heart, I know Lord is with me, I sense something which always goes the same way whenever i'm down. Amen. For example, someone will always approach me telling me stuff that really washes all my bad thoughts away and I know, God send them here! The moment I feel/ heard that, I cant control my emotions& wept.
Someone called me just now. Guess who? MY EX EX! Asking me if I want to accompany him for a movie. Didnt give him any answer yet as I dont really wish to hang out with him. My senses tell me not to as I know somehow, he have some motive in everything he's doing. Recalling what he onces done to me and we ended in the Police station last year, It's so...! FORGET IT! Not at this moment as I feel there is still some hurtful mark and scary moments being with him. |
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| with love ♥ 11:19 AM |
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| Sunday, December 30, 2007 |
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I got myself a super short hair cut yesterday& a picture of a church while walking. Looking fine?

Wept on both days. Asking me why? I'm not gonna say as it's not a big deal after all. Maybe just for today? It's all because of my attachment and private 'O' stuffs. AHHHH, i'm seriously rage at someone! Dont't ask me who/ why. I just don't wish to mention about it.
I will get to go to school very soon after I register for it. |
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| with love ♥ 8:57 PM |
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| Friday, December 28, 2007 |
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I spend my day wisely. Having all my houseworks done except for mopping as there is not enough time. Ironing& folding of clothes for my family. Reading storybook to improve my english so I can get well prepared for my night studies at Private'O'.
Yea, I realised how important studying is when I see the people around me are smart& they have their own plans for their future. Having a clearer vision of what I want and goals to achieve for my future. Especially from someone. The one who really makes me want to study and to have a future which I wished for.
Alright, going to have a new hair cut tomorrow and to a school name "Peace Centre" to have a look at the environment which I will be enrolling to. Blessed that it will be really near my work place. (Which is just opposite) |
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| with love ♥ 9:26 PM |
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Some lame jokes from my best male friend, DicksonLek.
Christian, OMG = Oh my God. Buddist, OMGM= Oh my guanyin ma. Malay, OMA= Oh my ala. Indian, OMS= Oh my suria.
His jokes makes me burst out laughting. But when it's my turn to tell my friend, they simply give me a look. Maybe i can laugh at anything or im a superb cheerful person? |
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| with love ♥ 2:04 AM |
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| Tuesday, December 25, 2007 |
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Merry, merry christmas everyone. Now, at my uncle house celebrating Christmas with all my relatives. What I can say is, his house looks GORGEOUS! One of the room is a place where is totally dark and have a super big screen with a background of black to made it look like a cinema. The room is to target teenagers as they can play games like Xbox, movie or whatever in there.
Alright, I shall enjoy myself now/ today.
Oya. not to forget, I dreamt of something sweet today. It was sweet but I didnt want it to! It seems to be a dream which I dreamt before in the past. Im not sure either. But, I dont care anymore. WHATEVER!!!!!
Bless me with Your Love, grace, wisdom& hope O'Lord. First wish... Second wish... &third wish... |
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| with love ♥ 2:15 PM |
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| Monday, December 24, 2007 |
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Summary of everything. I happy with what I have now. Having Lord, the guy friend &mingmin with me was really enough. I dont expect much anymore.
What I have to do now is to finish my attachment and get myself into a private school to finish my "O" in order to go poly.
Yesterday was Christmas party for the poly cluster at a fuction hall, scenery was nice and I did enjoy myself. Came to realise that I get to know more people in church yesterday. Taking photos with zhanyi's camera was fun tho it cant zoom in/out but clearer or blur. Have a short chat with his brother too. In the past, I thought his brother was kind of cool, I mean those who dont speak much to people who they dont know. But I was wrong, talking to him isn't that bad after all.
I dont deny that I was touch when you asked me how have I been in a tone which beat my heart at that very moment. Luckily, there was a guy& asmine who helped me out. My mum too, telling me ' not to chi whei tou chao'. Get the meaning? ( not to turn back for the thing that has already past.)
To Lord, thankyou for You are with me whenever I needed someone to talk to. I know You are always here with me, guiding me the path. Pour Your grace, hope& favour in me Lord. Love simin.
To Zhanyi, Let us have a good relationship of a friend with each other that we dont need to worry how people sees/ look at us even if it's at church? |
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| with love ♥ 12:44 PM |
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| Tuesday, December 18, 2007 |
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It's a charismatic church. We believe in tougues.
Don't worry about what others church preached. It's all different anointing. What you want to hear is truth that set you free.
Maybe church are not going well with each other but God is still there for us and them all.
Grace and Truth came from Jesus. It's together. When we preach about Jesus and His finished, there will the Truth. Aint bad about grace. We are all living in grace. Someone says that we don't deserve to even live . But it's by grace of God to give His only Son to be propitiation for our sins. |
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| with love ♥ 2:59 PM |
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